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I wrote this letter because i know,,i am not the woman who can describe all feelings easily,while i want you to know what i feel,,,so,,this is the only way for me pouring all my  feelings out of my head,,,

hhhmmm...its so hard to be my self...i was a foolish girl,badly manner i have is to always curse my own self,my day....nothing special in it,,just doing all around that activities.,but what often makes me feel sad is,,to be number two on someones mind,,weird? Ya..,i was so painful if someone did what i didnt like,you know why? Hhmmm,,because i feel,,i would get her/his divided affection and love if he/she truely did it,and thats one i really hate of,selfish?,,i think so,,,hehehe,,,but thats the fact!! And i cant avoid that feeling easily,and thats the grant from god since i was born,,,,but i think,not only me who have this thought,i sure  almost people,especially for woman,will has the same feel as i have.but its true right?? You know how irritated to have a divided love and affection?? Its look like you never get her/his full attantion anymore,,hehehe,,thats based on my sight,but that s up to everyone mind.so....hhmm,,i like make a friendship to anyone who like it too.i like to be a listeners over someone’s story.and make them satishfied with my present aside.i looovee to be a meaningful person for those who believe me so.i can even give everythings to the one i really care,i realize,im ajealous type of person.for everythings,not only in love case,but many cases.no...i wont lie...all the written is original me,sorry...not important,,just tellin,,heeeee